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[lbd_nytetrayn]

I swear, I don't know what to make of life any more.

New to the list of crap:

I managed to catch a bus that was stopped at the light on the way to work. I pretty much plead with the driver to open the door, and I'm pretty sure he was mocking my gesture before letting me on. And I think he called me a jerk and was saying something else, but maybe he was just talking about what he had for lunch. Around here, hard to tell. But I sort of doubt it.

My hours are cut back this week at work, as we need money as much as ever now. Worse, the hours I'm working aren't exactly what I'd define as "prime real estate;" out of 4.5 hours at work, a large chunk of it is when people eat dinner. When I'd be working a longer shift, I'd usually take my full hour lunch at the 6-7 hour as a result so I wouldn't have to bother them or be bothered by doing it.

After work, I find out I've got mail telling me that, for some reason, I won't be able to use my Future Shop credit card any more. It doesn't really make much sense, and I've not been able to call and confirm (well, I have, but only after entering all my information on the automated system do they tell me their office is closed). Red thinks it's a mistake, but somehow I doubt it.

And after I get home, I get to find out that one of my faves, Chris Benoit and his family, were found dead, possibly a double-murder suicide.

This, and so much else. The break-in of my Jeep, losing one of my favorite games, Sensational Sherri dying, bills piling up, losing the Otakon panel, our pet Ashley dying, and Lord knows what else I'm forgetting. I feel overwhelmed. It's like so much to take, but at the same time, it's like other people have it worse, and I just don't know what to do our how to feel.

I... just... I don't know.

I just feel so tired, exhausted by it all.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

Comments

[gregoryrpratt.livejournal.com]

What game did you lose? And when did your jeep get broken into?

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Super Mario 64 DS, and early May, respectively.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[gregoryrpratt.livejournal.com]

What did they take?

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Nothing except MAYBE a nightstick that I could tell, strangely enough.

Seems like it might've been a mistake; there's some sort of car ring that's been going around to apartment garages all up and down the street and breaking in, taking of all things the airbags from Japanese model vehicles. Mazda and Hondas mainly, I think, which of course a Jeep is neither.

So best of all, not only was my window busted (and hood raised, doors left unlocked, and one of the fucking people who work in the building that USED to park next to me UNTIL he saw what happened to my car and didn't tell me) for no good reason, but it wasn't even for a bad reason. Pretty much just for no reason at all.

I mean, I guess I should be thankful that they didn't take the airbag... but fuck, when your world just keeps appearing in shades of gray, it gets hard to notice a cloud's silver lining.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

And for the record, don't let my icon fool you; I keep forgetting that's the default when I reply from my e-mail. I've had to delete other replies about the Benoit story in several LJs and repost so it doesn't look like I'm some sort of ass.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[gregoryrpratt.livejournal.com]

I don't think you're some sort of ass.

[gregoryrpratt.livejournal.com]

But hey. Don't think that my conversation with my friend about murder-suicide is ass-ey. It's just a conversation we're having that we've had for awhile. It's got nothing to do with the Benoit situation.

[shinkuu.livejournal.com]

Hey, even if other people do have it worse, that fact doesn't make your life any easier, does it? I'm sorry to hear so much crap is piling up right now... Crappy stuff is bad enough, but when it all piles up, it's even worse.

I sent some packages to you last week or so, and I hope that's not adding to the headaches (as I know they can). There's the package by UPS, which I'm not 100% sure I used the right address for (but it's worked before, so...). And then there was the bigger package I sent through the Post Office. In any case, it can't erase your worries, but I hope they can help to lift your spirits up a little.

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Friday, they went ninja on us. Remember that ep of Simpsons where Bart takes a job delivering Thai food menus? Yeah, it was like that. They took the unusual step of actually coming up to our apartment to leave their little post-it note.

Today, they left it downstairs. I think Red's going to try and collect in the next day or two.

No sign of the PO one yet.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Son of a bitch, I did it again...

Sorry, Ema, but right now, you've gotta step back...

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[anotherdelta.livejournal.com]

You should try focusing on the more positive parts of the day/week/month, but in particular, don't let more minor things bother you, like almost missing the bus this morning. The thing is that you caught it, and that's what matters, and this is a positive thing, not a negative thing. It may be hard to do this, but focusing on the negative will only lead to severe bitterness.

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Missing the bus wasn't a problem for me, it was the driver.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[bpmomega.livejournal.com]

Wow, that's pretty depressing, Nyte...

I hope you see the light at the end of this long-winded tunnel of bad luck soon...

If I win the Power Ball tomorrow, I'll send you a million... >_>