Oh, yeah. I almost forgot.

[lbd_nytetrayn]

I sort of held this off on account of... other things... that went on last week, and didn't really want the two mingling.

I've already covered part of what made the start of last week shitty, in great detail, no less.

Well, here's the other part.

To say I've got problems physically would be an understatement. I look alright by all accounts, I'm sure, but I guess you could say there's "more than meets the eye" here. *rimshot*

(Hey, just because it sucks doesn't mean I have to let it ruin my mood.)

At any rate, with a little nudging from Red, I've gone to the doctor and gotten X-Rays and seen specialists... well, last Tuesday, I got to see a specialist. Damn near missed it, too, we thought the appointment was Wednesday. As Jay Sherman might've said, "Oooooh, how AWKward!" (thanks for the DVD set, shinkuu. Can you tell it's seeing use?)

Anyway, long story short, it seems that my legs are malformed. My knees are not properly centered, and it can cause me problems. Namely, my knees sliding out of place and locking up my legs.

Oh, and pain. There's plenty of that, I assure you.

On the bright side, problems rarely come up becaue I've become overly paranoid/cautious over the years. Yep, it's been going on for awhile now, since I was about 13 or 14. And no one ever really noticed. But yeah, I tend to be VERY careful when I'm walking, I hate to run, and I REALLY hate going out in any kind of really cold, icy, or wet weather.

It's also proven problematic at work, as kneeling, squatting, or otherwise getting down to a low level--and subsequently getting back up-- is quite a pain. Literally. It's also prevented me from being able to perform the full extent of my job at Indigo, which involves climbing in and out of a cage that magazines come in, leaving me to need the help of another there.

There is a surgery that can pretty much eliminate any risk of further problems, but due to the infrequency of anything happening, the specialist says it's not worth the risk. Frankly, I disagree, and we may look at a second opinion. The reason it's infrequent is because I'm so fucking paranoid that I can barely stand on my own two feet without worrying. It's the peace of mind I'm after. I like the idea of not having to worry about what might happen if I'm not prepared when I move. It makes me feel good inside.

The downside of the procedure, unfortunately, is that I'd effectively have to be off my feet for 6 months while stuff resettles in place. And given my employment status, that wouldn't help. So I'm really hoping I can get a job writing for someone, somewhere... since sitting by the computer is a favorite pasttime of mine, I think I could manage it for long enough...

Not that we can afford it yet, but I'd rather wait until after Otakon this year anyway. So hopefully something will happen by then.

And I think that's all the main details. Lovely, huh?

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

Comments

[emerald084.livejournal.com]

My sister has about the same condition, and so do I, to a (much) lesser extent.
I'd suggest waiting. Six months is a bit long for no chance of a job, and relying on a job like Red's...
Well, given her salary and how unreliable the money is coming, and her hours being scaled back, I'd definitely hold on if you can.
Hope it all works out, bro. :\

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm definitely waiting, even if I was working, I wouldn't want this to interfere with stuff happening up to and including Otakon, so.

I'm just hoping I can wind up in a position where I CAN do this without any real negative impact on my job.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[shinkuu.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry man, that sucks! I can't think of a job that can be done off your feet. There's writing, but getting paid to do that seems pretty difficult to me. I wish there were some way I could help! Let me know if there is, okay?

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

In theory, anything behind a keyboard is good to me. I just prefer writing because then it'd mean I don't have to go anywhere. And over the cold months, that suits me JUST fine.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[shinkuu.livejournal.com]

I hear ya. The short time I was able to work from home on the laptop was really nice. The only problem was that, during that time, I was on part-time status, and my job had trouble sending me enough work to keep occupied. So I wasn't really making any money... But that would be an ideal working situation, if it paid!

Not to mention saving time on the commute... I'd gain an extra two hours a day right there.

[zaphy.livejournal.com]

oog. OOG. The world needs to stop taking massive dumps on you guys.

About all I can offer is some advice, which you probably already know about, which is that dry heat (like electric blankets) is very bad for pains, as it'll only make it worse. It'll FEEL good, but it won't really. Ice massages and hot baths/showers are best.

I dunno. :[ If there's something we can do, toss a brick at our faces.

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)



--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Oh, I should add, I don't exactly use an electric blanket, except at night to sleep. Even then, it's not plugged in... in fact, it seems to recycle our body heat...

And hot baths aplenty, yes.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"

[drneko.livejournal.com]

Hotchie Motchie! I hope you can find a job you can do at home and use that as the time period to recover. Wish you the best of luck.

[lbd-nytetrayn.livejournal.com]

Me too, thanks.

--LBD "Nytetrayn"